C3R@phin.com

It’s fun to see, how sometimes, you need to change.
You don’t really know why, but you feel that you need it. Some call that a living crisis, but me i just call that a new cross on the pathway of my life.
Today is my day, i need this change, but i am not like others. This change will not do it him self.
I can’t stand on the path of my life, stading here, without fighting against me, against my fears, my dreams, my evil, my angel, all this things inside me.
Since several days, i speak with friends about my life, my past, my feelings, and that’s help me a lot to find what my life mean actualy. Fuck surviving, hello been a live.
Today what the first morning i didn’t ask me “why did i wake up?” from a long time ago.
To make this change i will need you all, my friends, my loves, all of you. You all whose take a path which cross mine.
You all know that i do stupid things all the time, and killing my self. So i say it, today it’s end ! I say stop to all thins stupid things.
That’s not a new year challenge, but a new life start.
You all know that i drink like a bitch, END!
Some know i smoke, END!
Others know how i am scare of myself, END!
I start to speak with my voice, and my heart.
I will stop to be this tempter’s arsehole, stop thinking “whooo she is butty, go on!”
I will take care of my really feelings and take the time of thinking.
SO I WANNA CHANGE AND I WILL.
But help me and let me time.
I LOVE YOU ALL !
thanks to you lise for all this hours of speaking, and for finding the stolen key.